Updates...

I have this thing where I begin to write a blog entry and then I don't have the pahzazz to finish it so it sits in my blog as a draft.

I realize that it's been a while since I've posted a real, true to life, entry. So, without further ado, here goes:

.:| In a few more than 20 days, the plan is to leave the McCall's and go somewhere - possibly Seabrooke's house to live for the majority of the summer.
.:|At this point, I don't have a job, other than babysitting, which allows me to pay my bills and have a little extra left over for spending. Nor do I have any money saved up to be able to pay for rent at Seabrooke's.

.:|I posted an ad on Craigslist advertising myself as a nanny for the near future and beyond. I came home tonight to see a response from a lady asking me when I could start.
.:|I just emailed her back letting her know that I can start immediately and asking her about her family and what she is looking for in her nanny, along with a few other questions. At this point, I am not assuming that I will get this job, rather I am assuming that it is a scam and that I won't get it and so on and so forth. Now, don't get me wrong, I am not being overtly pessimistic, I am just being a realist and knowing that I can't just assume that it is going to work out.
.:|I do, however, know that God has a plan for me and that I can rely on Him and trust in the fact that He loves me and knows what I need when I need it. He is my provider, not anything else, and I relish in the knowledge that He can never let me down.
.:|So, at this point, it's a wait and see game. I made the first move, she responded, and then I made the third move. We'll see how it pans out from here...

.:|A goal that I have, dependent on whether I get this nanny job or another job for that matter, for this summer is to save up enough money to get a vehicle. I would love to be able to get something fairly new, so that I don't have to worry about fixing it up a whole lot, but I'll really take anything...

.:|I am attempting to learn spanish, though it's not coming along so well. Kelsey and I are going to use Rosetta Stone software to try and get better at it. It's a goal of mine to learn the spanish language and to be able to interact with people of Hispanic culture.

.:|Providence is so bueno. I am still involved in a community group and am enjoying getting to know God better and also getting to know the people there better. I am involved in a few give ministries through Prov. including nursery, refreshments, greeting, and an overview of the give ministries. I start a new position with the nursery this month and that is a teaching role. That just means that I will be giving the lessons to the kiddos ages 3+ once a month. I'm excited about this new role!
.:|Regarding the refreshments, that just means that I set up the bagels in the back once or twice a month. Greeting means I stand outside welcoming people to Providence and giving them bulletins with a smile and a hug.
.:|The overview of the give ministries means that I am calling certain members of the church and making sure that they are involved with a give ministry themselves.

.:|I am continuing to look into going to Haiti for a missions trip this summer, though I'm not so sure it is going to work out. I would love to go, but whatever happens will happen. A lot will depend on fundraising - though i haven't sent out flyers about that yet : ( If I do not get to go, it will be okay. I know that there are many able bodied persons who will go and do great things there!

.:|I have somethings to think about regarding housing situations in the later future. For instance, I'm not sure how the whole Seabrooke thing is going to work out past the summer months. It's something that God is working on and in and it will be resolved when it needs to be resolved...

.:|Other wise, life is going well. It's keeping me on my toes and providing me with plenty of life changing experiences. My trust in the Lord grows stronger daily, as I wait on Him to provide me with what I need. I know that in the end He will get all the glory! He deserves it and I trust in Him and what He is doing in and through my life.

Today is April 2nd.
In less than one month I will be moving out of the McCall's and, like usual, I have NO idea what is going to happen after that.

I still don't have a "real job" as my mother would like to call it, and as of right now my income from babysitting isn't enough to be able to move into Seabrooke's house and pay for everything that would be needed, including rent, utilities, groceries, a bus pass, etc. So I'm finding myself between a rock and a hard place. I relish in the day when I won't be worried about money because I'll have a job.

Today I am going to T.J. Maxx to see if they are hiring still. I should have done this a week or two ago but I did not.

I've been kept busy with babysitting this week.
4 different families in three days. A total of $231 this week from babysitting. and that doesn't include babysitting tonight and possibly tomorrow morning.

I enjoy weeks like this :) Between being busy babysitting, spending time with friends, sleeping, eating, line-dancing, and being entertained, it's a good week. I have the ability to see two different concerts tonight, though not sure if I'll be able to do both or not, helping out with an egg hunt tomorrow, spending the night at Tabetha's tomorrow, going to the easter sunrise service at Red Rocks, then going to Providence, then going over to Josh & Holly's for easter lunch/dinner and getting to meet new people [I hope!].

Life is good, and God is greater than I'll ever know, but gives me what I need and desire.

Everyone's Irish in Denver [on march 17!]

St. Patty's Day.
I enjoy you :)
I would enjoy your more if I were able to be in Chicago and see the green river.
But I'll still enjoy you tomorrow in Denver.

Things I am planning on doing [especially since I don't have job right now :D]:

going to a job interview - at the United Way as a 2-1-1 Resource Specialist! Praying it comes through as it's something I would LOVE to do!
visiting the Celtic Tavern - one of my new favorite spots : ) http://denver.metromix.com/restaurants/essay_photo_gallery/reservations-please-celtic-tavern/1747511/content
visiting the Fado Irish Pub - c'mon, what's more fun than an irish pub on st. patty's day?!
Biking it up
Wearing green!
Hanging around downtown and visiting people.
Going to community group
Going out [somewhere] for in celebration of St. Patrick and Kelsey's birthday :D

it's gonna be a good day and night!

Buses

I'm really beginning to enjoy taking the bus system. While it means that i have to be more proactive about where I want to go and that sort of thing, I like being able to just sit and relax. Well, at least relaxing until the last 10 minutes or so of the bus ride because I don't want to miss my stop... eeesh. :)

I'm taking the bus today to babysit later tonight. I don't start babysitting until 6:40 but I have to start walking to the bus stop by 5:10. Not only is this good exercise, I have the chance to see more of life in these parts and even possibly get to know people. Plus the idea of not spending money on gasoline is a great bonus.

[note that I would have taken the bus if I were going to babysit - one of the boys is sick :( ]

I do enjoy riding them, though. Since i don't have to babysit i will probably stay home tonight since I was out alll week. :)

Changes

I just rearranged the room that I am staying in.
You see, I am a snorer. It's something that I ask God to take away every night. True story.
But, apparently, out of all of the genes I could have got from my mother, I was destined to snore like her.
This is not the kind of snore that's cute and quiet. Oh no.
My snore is rather loud and obnoxious.
This is one of the reasons Dani was so excited that I was not going to be her roommate anymore.
My snores would wake her up in the middle of the night and she would have to yell my name to get me to stop snoring. Too bad for her my snoring is one that may subside for a few minutes but it will start back up eventually.
I think a lot of this has to do with the fact that I sleep on my back with my mouth open.
But really, anyway that I sleep - on the side, on my back or on my stomach, I always find the ability to snore.

So, I say all of that to preface why I re-arranged my room. I now will sleep facing the outside wall, and hopefully my snores will at least seem quieter when people are passing by my room.
I think I am just being naive, I don't really think it will work, but it is sure worth a try.

Life is also ever changing.
I am praying the the change is going to be drastic.
Like getting a job! I had an interview the other day.
It seems as though it went well. They asked me about which shifts I would rather work.
I asked them which they needed more.
The lady said "I think that because of your experience you would be an asset to the 5 nights/week shift"
So I'm really praying and hoping that because of that, I will be hired on.

My official move-out date from the McCall's is May 1st.
I really need God to move in great ways in order to see this happen!
The job is definitely the first thing.
Once I have the job, I will need to save money and look for housing.
Depending on where I find an apartment at, I can just ride the bus to and from where I need to go...
I don't mind riding the bus, actually, I rather enjoy it. Gives me a lot of quiet reflective time.
There is going to be a lot of stuff going on in the next few months and I am so excited for it all to start unfolding!

Year 23

Yesterday I saw a fox! It was an adult fox, on the corner of Dover&52nd. I stopped my truck for about 30 seconds taking in it's glory. :) It made me want to watch the Fox and the Hound. I <3 that movie. That's all about the fox.

Today I bought my packzi's and they were delicious. I didn't stop to think of what I was doing, and I ordered a dozen of them, half glazed, half powder-sugared. I had 1.5 and gave the rest away. I also bought some pierogie's and they are delicious as well. I bought two ziplock bags of them, one is filled with a potato and cheese mixture, the other with a cabbage/mushroom mixture. They are delicious! Mmmm, mmmm, mmmm! I tried one of each of them for lunch. I'm going to try and save them for when Ana comes here, but that may be hard to do...So, if worse comes to worst, we'll just go and buy some more.

I babysat today, as well. I got up early to make sure I got my packzi's and then went right after that to babysit. I was there from 8:45-6:20 this afternoon. It was a good day, a long day, but very much delightful. I got to watch 4 of the cutest little girls and had a blast. I can't wait for when it gets warmer so that when I babysit I can take the kiddos outside to play. Annnd, the money from this was good too, which makes it super nice!

I will soon be accomplishing another of my previous mentioned goals this week: go line dancing. A group of friends and I are going to go to the Grizzly Rose Thursday night (which happens to be ladies night) and just have a good 'ole time. I am so happy about this; I've been in Denver a year and still haven't gone line dancing. That is quite unacceptable...  Now it will change. I would love to go at least once a month. At least. I'm hoping to meet some new people while I'm there. I've really been craving ways to meet other people, who can bring some fun adventures into my life.

I really want this month to be the beginning of new life for me. To have this 23rd year be a year of adventure and excitement means a lot to me. I'm tired of living a boring life. I'm also tired of being the typical american who knows only one language and only cares about herself. I am striving to be a lover of people, a friend to those who want it, and a person who has more that just my self-interest in mind. Year 23 is going to be one of radical love accompanied by change within.

Future Decisions

I have a BIG decision to make in the coming weeks/months.
My mom really wants me to come home and live with her again, at least for a few months.
She is having some housing troubles and feels that having a "dependent" living there again will lessen some of the brunt (though I'm not entirely sure how). 
She informed me today that there is a lien on the house because of a truck that her and my dad bought ten years ago (which was repo'd because they couldn't pay for it). 
The lien is for $15,000. 


So, I have to decide if I can go back there and live with her for a few months. 
3-6 months, to be approximate.
I'm praying about this decision.
But, I know that if I go back I am going to be miserable.
For as much as my mom wants me back, she knows that we don't get along regarding anything.
We fight and argue all the time - nothing I do is ever good enough.
She makes stupid decisions and is too negative for me to understand or enjoy.


She misses having people around - it's only her in the house now.
She has a crappy dating life - she's never happy by herself and always needs to be in a relationship.
That is also the cause of strife among us...


I also do not miss my real hometown of Bangor.
I was just talking to my sister about how if I never lived there again I would be more than happy.
I see the life that some of the people I graduated with have there and it's not something that I desire.
I don't have a church home back there, and I would miss Providence sooooooooooooo much.


I'm a little upset that my mom wants me to leave my life and who I'm becoming to go back there, because she wouldn't do that for me. 
I would have to put my life, as I know it, on hold. 
And find a job somewhere around there.
I don't really have anyone I would call "friend" living there...
It's not at all something I want to go back to.


In the pit of my stomach I am dreading having to pray about this and decide what to do.
I'm scared I'm going to be like Jonah and have to go back to my version Ninevah. 
But, as much as I have no desire to go back, I know I have to listen to God's voice in this situation.
I have to pray about it and see what he says and follow Him in it.