These past few weeks I have been provided with a LOT of babysitting jobs. Such a blessing to me in more ways than financially!
I am learning a lot about what it means to instill values in children. Growing up I probably didn't learn the best methods for discipline and those methods have stuck with me for the long run. I am finally learning, through watching great families love on their wonderful children, better ways to discipline children and more than that how to love and encourage them more.
I am reminded that kids will seek any kind of attention they can get. Also I find that most kids are good. It is when they are tired or when they are bored that they tend not to be wearing their "listening ears". Through being around these great families that i talked about above, I am learning to have more patience and to really put that patience to the test. It's so easy to say that I have patience, but if I am not gentle with the children or understanding of the fact that they are still young and just like to. have fun, then I am not truly being patient.
I am usually reminded of the fact that God is more than patient with me, because He knows the stupid things I do. And the stupid things that i continue to do. Even though I don't want to do them, I still tend to do them. I'm very much like Paul in this aspect "I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate," (Romans 7:15; ESV).
How is it that it is so easy to deny God and please ourselves than it is to have it done the other way around? That just bugs the crap out of me. I have next to nothing in the willpower department when it comes to do that which God asks me to do rather than that which I would prefer to do. Myself [nearly] always wins. "So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me," (Romans 7:17-20; ESV).
On Sunday at Providence, Jim Wood talked about the Call & Cost of Discipleship as seen in Matthew 16:24-27. He talked about these verses and showed them to be broken down into three steps. Discipleship is about The Call, The Warning, and The Reward.
The Call says that following Jesus involves "self-denial;" [putting down my own interests to take on God's and other people's] which means [saying no to living to my own selfish desires and living out what God has told me to]. It also involves "suffering" [Acts 9:15-16]. Lastly, we follow Jesus by emulating Him [learning from, following His example, going where He goes and doing what He does (Matthew 16:26)].
The Warning reminds me that striving to save my life "now" will result in losing it "ultimately" [the world offers us nothing compared to Heaven - it pales in comparison to the offer of LIFE]. It also reminds me that Nothing the world offers compares to eternal life [the call of Jesus is to a greater reward]. and lastly that we will be "rewarded" according to what we have done [this does not say that I will be saved based on what I have done, but rather the reward in Heaven will be based on what I have done]. “He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose” - Jim Elliot.
Finally The Reward we receive is "fulfilling what God created us for" [Eph 2:8-10 & Titus 3:14]. The Reward is "Christ Himself" [Phil 1:21. I need to remember though, that if I follow Christ for any other reason than because I love Him, then i am not really following Him]. The Reward is also "Eternal glory" [Romans 8:18].
Having "it all" means having Jesus. If I were to answer the questions of "Do I die daily to self" the answer would be no. I can guarantee that I have never died a day in my life. Honestly, I hate to admit that, but it's the honest truth. It's a struggle to die by the decision of the moment. It's hard and costly. Let's be honest here. the cross is intense suffering and shame until death. But, it is what I was made for. I don't want to miss it. I don't want to waste my life, though I tend to do that more and more as I go along.
Chances are if I am doing something, i have dirty motives behind it. I will admit that there are times when i don't, but the "clean" motives aren't something that come naturally. I have to struggle for them and I have to put aside what I would like to see happen because of what i've just done and it's hard. But I am learning that God is the only motive I need. Not in a legalistic kind of way, but in a way of love...
I am figuring out how to put the love chapter into play and what it truly means....
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres [1 corinthians 13:4-7; NIV]
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end. [1 Cor 13:4-7; The Message].
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